kabaliwan. *bow*
Natatawa ako. Hi-hi-hi-hi. ^__^
Pa'no ba naman kasi. Naisipan kong halungkatin ang magulo kong My Documents folder. Naging busy kasi ako lately kaya hindi umandar ang pagiging OC ko sa file folders, etc. Habang nagdi-delete ako ng mga walang kwentang bagay, na-spot ko ang isang Word document na me title na "shitty sh0ut0uts". Napangiti ako syempre. Alam na alam ko kung ano'ng nasa file na yun. Haha. Para siyang blog na unpublished. Halos araw-araw nga akong nagsusulat dati dun eh. Yun kasi ang emo outlet ko. Dun ko nilalabas lahat ng ka-emohan ko sa lab na yan. HAHA.
Nakakatawa siya basahin. Full of angst and what-nots. Grabe, ganun ba talaga ako ka-frustrated that time? Take note, pure english posts lang ang nandun. Ang galing ko palang umemo. Haha. At ang mga linya ko, whew! Tagos! Haha. Nakakaaliw. ^__^
Pero hindi ko na nga yun na-update. Naging busy kasi ako. Saka, nawalan na ako ng dahilan para gumawa ng "shitty shoutouts" eh. Ang ganda na lang kaya ng mundo. ^__^
Wala lang. Wala kasi akong maisip na topic eh. Kaya eto, ni-reveal ko na lang ang isa sa mga embarrassing stuff na kini-keep ko. Hindi ko talaga idi-delete yun. Malay ko, ma-upgrade yun pag nagkalabuan na naman kame ng mundo. Haha. Answit! Mundo Ko. Haha. Labo.
Eto, iinclude ko ang ilan sa mga *giggles* tagos kong linya. Haha. Bite me. =)
- It feels as though he’s watching me from the inside out, reading my innermost thoughts and laughing them off. How dumb he must think I am. Fine, I am stupid. Really stupid for even writing about you. Ha-ha-ha. This isn’t even amusing me in any way.
- I know I can do so much better than look at you in that I-wanna-scream-I-heart-you way that I so don’t mean to show.
- I wanna slap you hard and tell you to quit making me feel this effin’ cheesiness that I secretly enjoy.
- I don’t know which is which in my case. It doesn’t really even matter that much. (Ha, liar!) They’re just stupid songs, is all. Really stupid songs that stupefied me in my previous lifetime. Really stupid songs that still get through my stupid heart. I am so stupid.
- I’m tired. I seriously give up. I’m not going to lead you on or make you believe I’m all ready or any of that shit. I am still the “friend” Marchie and nothing more. But as always, I’m not closing my doors on you. I never had and I never will. But for the record, I’m tired. Maybe it’s time that you do all the thinking. I’m on hiatus for now.
- It’s really starting to get funny. I mean, I enjoy being his “friend”. Congrats, man! Keep it up and I’ll be walking out on your love proposals from now on. Mark my word.
- But anyway, I think he just asked me out. A friendly date kuno, accordingly. And I said yes. But not that yes. Just the yes-yes. I’m still following my list, you know.
- Fine. I’m not jealous because I think they’re already sharing something “special” between them or any of that crap. (But really, sometimes I wish they did so I’d have a reason to be fucking alone and die.)
- I was happy for the last couple of days. All because of the fact that I got to see him. I even got to talk to him for a minute or so. Wow. Heaven. =)
- Why did I have to say those things? They aren’t all that important, anyway. Adrian wouldn’t care about how I’d feel. He wouldn’t give a damn about this whole thing. He wouldn’t… need me back. I just know. =(
posted by [.MARCHiE.] @ 7:08 AM
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